Tick Tock on the Counter-clock

 

Inside a 14 year old’s (freshmen’s) thoughts (better known as my own):

I think I’m going to be a vet when I get older. Hold on no, I think I found something even better, I can be a spy or an investigator! That would be so much fun and so easy! Ugh, I just want a boyfriend. We could hold hands and hangout all the time and go on dates to the movies. I would tell him everything and trust him with my life! I want to go shopping at the mall with four of my best friends but my mom won’t let me, she’s so annoying. Why doesn’t she ever let me have fun? Same with my dad, I asked him if I could go bowling with two of my other best friends but he said no, even though one of them is one year older than me! That’s so dumb, I’m seriously old enough to go out with my friends by now. I can’t wait until I’m old enough to drive and have my license. Then I can go anywhere I want to go with my friends without my terrible parents telling me what to do. Also I could get a job, then I could go shopping ALL the time with NO limits! I hate high school and everyone in it. Everyone is weird, so my friends and I were thinking of throwing an anti-homecoming party. The dances and football games are so stupid, I can’t wait for them to be over. I want to go to college as far away as I can, like somewhere on the other side of the country. I just want to leave Ohio because it’s so boring, I want to see the world.

Inside an 18 year old’s (senior’s) thoughts (better known as my own):

I finally picked my major and minor, I’m excited for it, but it will take a lot of hard work to accomplish it. I’m old enough to have a boyfriend, but I want to wait for the right person, I can’t just hop into a relationship and open my heart to just anyone. My mom told me to go shopping with my best friend to find shoes for prom, but I would rather go with my mom herself, she seems to always know the right choice. My dad also said that I should go bowling tonight since I haven’t been out with a few of my friends lately, he even gave me money to go. That’s so dumb, I should be the one paying, not him… but I don’t have a job. I’m going to Lake Tahoe this summer with my family, what did I do to deserve such good parents? Man, I regret anything disrespectful I’ve ever said to them. Darn it, I just remembered I forgot to fill up the gas tank. I’ll have to stop there before bowling. While driving is helpful in most situations, it really is a pain sometimes. I don’t want a job. I want to live out my senior year without one, but my parents are paying for college, class trips, and everything in between, so it doesn’t matter what I do or do not want, I need a job. And getting a job doesn’t mean I can just throw money around, I will put limits on my spending. I love high school and everyone in it. I have experienced almost all of my “lasts” and I’ve cried through every single one of them. My last choir concert, my last class trip, my last winter formal, my last football game. And now I’ll be going to prom, my last high school dance, ever. I chose to go to a college close to home, if 2 hours and 45 minutes ranges as “close.” I couldn’t bare the thought of going to college across the country because my heart would break knowing that I couldn’t see my family more than twice a school year. I love Ohio, but I want to see the world. I just wish there was a way I could take my family and friends with me.

This process is stressful, the almost graduating process. I’ve gone through senior pictures, ACT testing, scholarships, job applications, college applications, college acceptances, college choice, and so much more. I’ve broken down a lot, honestly. It’s hard not knowing what you don’t know, which is exactly where I’m at.

I want to take a clock, turn it counterclockwise, and watch it fall backwards, but I want to fall backwards with it. I want to be a kid again. I want to tell my 13 year old self to appreciate her parents and stop being so darn snotty to such great parents who will do anything for her, because soon, she won’t have them to fall on anymore and time will run out. I want to tell her to enjoy her age and stop rushing everything and to participate in any activity thrown at her to joyfully get through high school. And most importantly, I want to tell her to grab a hold of every small detail of day-to-day life that molds her character and strengthens her personality.

One day you will wake up and realize you are no longer a kid. This is the most bittersweet moment you will ever encounter. On one hand, you finally can start your life as an adult – making future college plans, post college plans, etc. But on the other hand, you lose the things that matter to you most at this very moment, slowly, and painfully.

Appreciate every detail of what you have, because it won’t be there forever.

And to my mom and my dad, I love you and I’m sorry for all of the times I rushed my time living in this beautiful place I call home. You are, and always will be, my home.

 

 

 

 

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Undeniably Real

I started writing this post thinking I would only focus on single, young adult Christians who may be striving for a quality, Christ centered relationship, which, it is targeted to this group. But the ending encompasses Easter – Jesus’s story and how satan has no stronghold.

Love is beautiful. It molds itself into many relationships; a mother and a daughter, a man and his dog, two best friends, and the most profound love of all, us and Jesus. But there is a certain kind of love that transpires when a man and a woman fall in love. It is deep, it is complex, yet it holds simplicity when it is undeniably real. Everyone wants this kind of love – the kind that makes the world stop spinning for just a moment when you look deep into his/her eyes, and feel the infinite sense of true love. The kind that allows you to open up and let in. The kind that lets you take risks and become adventurous… together. The kind that is undeniably real.

The last boyfriend  I had was during my sophomore year. It lasted about 3 months total (if you count the “talking” part prior to the actual relationship.) He was an incredible person. I enjoyed his company and how sweet he was, but I didn’t feel the need to date someone that I knew wasn’t going to be “the one.” Fast forwarding two years later to now, I have recently seen many of my peers find significant others and I have been watching so many television shows and movies with some sort of love interest, and I have grown desperate – desperate for a relationship.

This is a place that I need to step away from, and fast. I know that it is okay to enjoy the thought of a real, authentic, Christ centered relationship, but never to the point of being so desperate that it leads to things like selfishness, and even lust. I keep saying “I’ll find the right person in college,” yet I know that it should never be my top priority in any situation to seek out a boyfriend.

Proverbs 3: 5-6 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will show you which path to take..” I have to know that God’s timing is precise, accurate, and better than any of the plans that I make to find the perfect person. A time will come where God will show me that person. It will be obvious and it will feel completely right, but I need patience. Yes, there have been people along the way since my sophomore year where I have questioned if it was right, but I know that God would have made it clear to me. 

To any young adult reading this, be patient. Love is a beautiful and intricate feeling that God intended for everyone to possess and appreciate, but all in the right timing. It will happen. When you find yourself struggling with the enemy’s lies telling you that you will be alone forever, rebuke him. Tell him that you are loved by a Creator that loves you already, and wants you to have that undeniably real love too. What I have found out is when you speak it out loud, rebuking satan and praising Jesus, something clicks. Today is Easter and I was reminded that “the resurrected King is resurrecting me.” The tomb was only borrowed for three days. The only thing that God has ever stolen was that dark grave. After Jesus was beaten, embarrassed, humiliated, stripped, torn apart, thrown around, pierced, and crucified, He died, hanging on that cursed cross.

I always think, if I were living back then, what part would I have played? Would I be the crowd, standing by, laughing, and spitting in my Saviors face? Or would I be the soldiers, pushing and shoving Jesus Christ Himself right into His death? I like to think I would be the few people who stood at Jesus’s feet, sobbing, asking for forgiveness, mourning over the Saviors death – but I can’t say that I would be in that position. I don’t know where I would be. All I know is that He did it all for me. For you. For everyone. For the believers, the gays, straights, liars, lusters, murderers, lovers, atheists, sinners. He did it for everyone. And three days later, after that tomb was borrowed, Jesus rose.

The same Jesus that rose so many years ago, the Jesus that breathed on His people, is breathing on us and is alive in us. This love is undeniably real. The reason why I talked about the meaning of Easter is because Jesus is alive – and any time that you rebuke Satan out loud, he will know that God is not messing around. God wants you to experience undeniable love, just like the love that Jesus has for you, and that you, and I, should have for Him. Just don’t strive for it out of desperation. It is all in His timing.

“With Cream and Sugar.”

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What is coffee? Stupid question, right? When you look up the definition of coffee, it tells you that it is “a drink made from the roasted and ground bean-like seeds of a tropical shrub, served hot or iced.” Simple. obvious. Delicious. But it isn’t what coffee merely is, it’s what coffee can abstractly do that interests me the most.

  1. Coffee Bridges the Gap.

Conversation can be awkward. Especially if you just met the other person, the other person is awkward, or you are straight up awkward. But coffee takes a little edge off of the uncomfortableness that may occur in conversation. It allows you to take a moment to sip it and it actually helps the conversation by talking about how sweet, good, bitter, or strong the coffee really is.

Some friends leave a bad taste, while others are brewed just right. Conversation can also be extremely pleasant between good-to-best friends, whether that be two people or a group. The recipe to a healthy relationship is a dash of laughter, a pinch of adventure, and a heaping spoon full of good conversation. I like to call coffee the ambassador of friendship.  It truly brings people together and it lets society use the excuse, “Oh, I can’t, I’m going for coffee,” without anyone getting upset or mad because how can you be mad over coffee?

2. Coffee is an infinite world of variety.

Iced, Hot, Dark Roast, Light Roast, Frappuccino, Machiato, Espresso, Americano, Latte, Flat White, Drip, Caramel, French vanilla, Mocha, Hazelnut, Coconut, Caramel mocha, Pumpkin spice, Peppermint, Amaretto, “foam,” “no foam,” “2 shots,” “cream and sugar,” “medium….”

These are only the top things that came into my head. I would bet that there are hundreds of thousands of varieties to choose from when it comes to coffee. It’s one of those things that makes my head spin, like when I think about how “God has always been,” or how I will never know how many pieces of grass there are in the world at this very moment. The examples I gave have their own extensions, and then more extensions after that. It’s a never ending chart of coffee types, flavors, kinds, etc. and it all comes down to the person; each person has their own free choice of what coffee they want. It is tailored to them.

3. Coffee is naturally delicious and calming.

There is nothing better than waking up to the smell of coffee being brewed. Wait, I was wrong, there is something better… drinking it. Coffee brings joy and satisfies taste. And yeah, coffee is known for waking someone up in the morning or throughout a hard day at work… but personally, a soothing, warm cup of coffee can do the opposite too by aiding me in sleep as well.

In all simpleness, coffee is calming, delightful, and a great gap holder.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Tasty Twist

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Indian Gardens Cafe & Market, Sedona, AZ | Better known, in my mind at least, as the best dang place to get a really, really good kale salad.

While my family trip to Arizona was memorable on its own from the breathtaking red rocks and mountains to the perpetual thrills of adventure, I can’t seem to help myself from thinking about this simple yet exquisitely effective kale salad. I know what you could be thinking, “how could a kale salad be worthy of writing a blog about?” Just hear me out…

Shredded organic kale, roasted butternut squash, toasted pumpkin seeds, crumbled goat cheese, dried cranberries, pickled red onion, citrus vinaigrette.

Whoever thought to put these decadent flavors onto one plate was a genius. I could argue they are right up there with Albert Einstein, or possibly Steven Jobs. And let’s be honest here, it sure does make a chic picture. Not only was this a delicious choice on the menu, the atmosphere was one of summertime joy and total serenity.

So, if you ever happen to be driving up the mountain of Oak Creek Canyon between Sedona and Flagstaff and happen to have an appetite for fresh, unique food, I highly recommend stopping by at the Indian Gardens Cafe & Market for a tasty twist on your food choices, especially kale.

http://indiangardens.com/

 

 

 

Glorious Sound (Aware)

After years of song writing, I finally have decided to post an original song to my channel.

Being still and listening to the voice of God is vital for a good relationship with Him and living joyfully. He is glorious, and what He wants to do in our lives and with us is glorious too. He wants to bless us, which is why I wrote a song about the glorious sound that comes with knowing Christ and the love He provides for me, and for you.

 

Untouched Snow

Untouched snow

a scene so sensational and surreal

but so desperate for just a dent

just a footprint

just a touch

recognizably pure

like a child before stepping foot into their first day of school

that first step into reality infiltrates and stains their once unadulterated mind

that first step into the snow infiltrates and stains the once unadulterated sheet of white

it tempts you and mocks you, but the safest way to go is to not go at all

step back and keep that snow untouched

Summertime

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